Gary
I just saw Gary. The special episode from The Bear. My mom said it was boring and she didn’t understand it. My aunt said nothing. I said, yeah, that’s a suicidal person. And I felt deep in my bones how it was fine until it wasn’t. How depression get romanticised when it’s sad thoughtful conversations …
truth or consequences
okay, so I told him. I was so convinced to just shut up about it, I did manage to tell him I’d miss him, like I’d hoped, and that should have been it. But then, yesterday, as I walked through the airport security I suddenly felt regret. Maybe it was the sudden realisation that I …
Idiot
I am an idiot. I knew this from the start. I think I’m feeling something like jealousy, for the first time maybe. Maybe it’s more like envy or something I don’t know. But I feel this little pain in my chest every time she gets mentioned and I just enter this spiral of sadness. She …
Ego
I wish you were hereI wish I could share this with youI wish you could be here with usOr maybe I’m just cold andmiss the warmth of your bodyagainst mine
T. and C.
T. I’ve been thinking about her a lot, lately. I’m not really sure why. I know I do not want her in my life again, let alone near anyone in my polycule. But I can’t stop my thoughts, can I? And so I let my mind wander in the memories. Her place, her cat cuddled …
Vore
Some time ago I read an article about kinky vore fantasies. I think I always consumed gore and vore medias, I’m not against it, but I’ve always thought about vore in gore contexts, in supernatural contexts. I’ve never thought about actually eating people that way. The article was about vore in a giantess-dom/small-sub fantasy with …
Singing voice
I have a very short audio note of L. singing. I listened to it and I breathed.I heard E. sing just last week and it just made me nervous. It’s batshit that I used to relax whenever I heard E.’s voice, his singing voice. Lately, it’s been “a fucking cheese grater” to cite Daniel Sloss. …
Nostalgia
There was a boy at the station with the same jeans you always wear.He was with his girlfriend.I really like those jeans on you.(I wanna saw them where they wore out and broke) On the train there was a girl with the same hair your friend has.I’m not sure she still has it styled that …
P.S.
there’s one thing you don’t know. You hurt me, sometimes. I’m sure I hurt you too. But I almost never tell you, when you do. I still like to bask in the pain. It gives me goosebumps and the tears are so sweet. I like crying for you, knowing you don’t know I’m there. You …