I just saw Gary. The special episode from The Bear. My mom said it was boring and she didn’t understand it. My aunt said nothing. I said, yeah, that’s a suicidal person. And I felt deep in my bones how it was fine until it wasn’t. How depression get romanticised when it’s sad thoughtful conversations …
Depression is a weird little thing. I’ve been carefully avoiding L.’s music for the past weeks. Yesterday I didn’t. I let chance do her thing, put the anxiety playlist on shuffle and waited for his piano, for his voice, to warm me up. It didn’t work how I wanted it to, it wasn’t warm. It …
warning: this piece may sound like it’s about my romances, but it’s actually just about suicide. again. It’s been a while since I last sat down with my feelings. I should have been writing a little more. If I had maybe everything would be different, right now. Every second there’s quiet around me I see …
Today I woke up with muscles spasms It had been a while since it last happened I have control over the big movements of my hand It just bothers me that it moves on its own And it hurts when I try to control the spasms It hurts to type this It scares me I …
It’s 3 am, I can’t sleep anymore and I’m having an anxiety attack. Also I’m kinda hungry. We had plans for tomorrow and I am stressed. So I got drunk, took my sleeping pills and went to bed. I fell asleep. When I got home drunk I thought about that other guy. If he had …
I’m quite struggling with my feelings lately. I’m not sure what love looks like for me, right now. I broke up with everyone I was dating cause none of those people had much meaning for me. And now I’m left alone with my feelings and I’m really struggling with understanding them. 1. Monogamy Fucking what …
Tue last time I was seriously self harming I was 18 and in high school. A few months later, fresh from being 19, I was raped and so my feelings sort of just stopped for a while. I’ve had some relapses later, though. The last time I’ve had concrete thoughts was about 4 years ago. …