Chronic ADHD pains

Today I woke up with muscles spasms
It had been a while since it last happened
I have control over the big movements of my hand
It just bothers me that it moves on its own
And it hurts when I try to control the spasms
It hurts to type this
It scares me
I know it’s a symptom
I know what the illness is
There’s nothing I can do about it, but wait
Wait for it to get worse
Wait for me to get tired enough
I know how it will end